Moses, David, and Paul were the three, largest in volume, authors of the Bible. They were all murders, over saw others murdered, or commanded a killing. God loved each one of the men from the moment they were born to their last breathe.
At a pivotal point they all realized their crime, their wrong, knowing in their heart that their past was sinful. Turning to God, they were FORGIVEN and released from their punishment of death. Each man went on to impact others in a God honoring way.
YOUR story is not too horrible, wrong, bad, or shameful for God to forgive and turn it around, bringing life to you and your future.